I’ve been waiting for this book. I needed it.

I know 29 isn’t old, but I just never thought I’d be this old. And now I am.

It’s almost time to go back to court again.

My name is Kelsey and I am a published author. It’s just the Internet but it’s still pretty cool. Before this I have only ever been published on blogs that I was helping to run myself, or under names that were not mine. I was commissioned by the Huff Post UK to write a piece about my experience with @showYoDiq and I am so happy with how it turned out. I’m proud of this one! I couldn’t have done it on my own, though. I give all the props to Jasmine who helped me get my messaging straight and did a ton of edits to make the piece as awesome as it is! Without further ado, here you go!

Want to feel good about yourself? Try something that you found difficult a year or two ago. That’s what I did today.

What’s bothering me

• phone hasn’t worked in over a week. At first it was nice but now I’m just annoyed.
• I’m a POS
• Restitution paperwork came. While overall it’s a good thing, that’s where I have to itemize how much money the dumb shit who posted my nudes online has cost me in the hopes that the judge will make him pay it back. I just hate thinking about it. And whatever number I come up with, i know it will never be enough.

I’ve been keeping a Jekyll blog for two years now and I’m still learning new things all the time. I have never taken the time to look into categories or tags. I’m adding categories to some of my old posts now to make things easier to organize and navigate .

It’s been a quiet weekend, other than the sick beats coming out of my raspberry pi. I’m learning coding and music at the same time, what could be better than this? (…well maybe it’d be better if I actually knew anything about music) ANYHOW, Im having fun and that’s what it’s all about. Too bad I didn’t have one of these bad boys growing up, I’d be a supernerd by now! The program I’m using to make music is called Sonic Pi. It comes standard as part of raspbian. Like everything on the pi, its made for kids and adults!

Hi my name is Kelsey and I’m a web developer specializing in ugly fucking websites.

Sorry I’m boring as fuck. Sorry my trauma does not entertain you enough.

What’s good

• I’ve been commissioned by the huffington post to write a piece about the filter. Cool :)
• A found my missing AirPod. I was getting ready to replace it! Turns out Jack left it in the cupboard when he was looking for a snack. I’ve legitimately lost sleep over this because AirPods are life.

I sewed today! I haven’t sewn in forever! I’m sewing a child-sized quilt using fabrics I had laying around. I’m going to donate it to charity when I’m done. I streamed it on Twitch and had a decent showing. We talked about some security stuff, but mostly I talked to myself. It was great!

What’s happening in my revenge porn case? Nothing. That’s the problem. It’s been two years since some freak posted my naked body online and he’s still out there, free.

I haven’t been blogging. I’ve been in my head too much. I’ve been busy… taking naps mostly. staring at my plants. I’m also launching a startup (you can do that laying down).

Last night I went to my ten year reunion. Why didn’t anyone tell me no??

What’s Good

• Roadtrip this weekend. Felt good to get away.
• I’m going to DEFCON
• Plants

###These Tits!!

• these tits are going to DEFCON I did something I don’t feel like telling my therapist about.

I’ve been avoiding the elephant but that can be hard to do.

I’m not doing anything with myself these days because I’m a lazy piece of shit. My psychiatrist says my brain is just sick and to be kind to myself but I don’t feel like it. She doesn’t know!

Has it really been this long since I wrote something here?

The girl said. But she was not consistent. No, not at all.

I’ve been married two years. I have no advice to give and I’m not a lovey dovey person so lets skip all that and look at pictures of how pretty my wedding was.

Me and A went out to anniversary dinner last night. We ate at Salty’s in Seattle- and nobody gives a shit about what I ate (fried chicken and mashed potatoes).

For real, though- I might have more friends if I didn’t read so much. That sounds terrible.

Bothering Me

• Sometimes, I get down on myself for being a lazy POS.
• The justice system is very slow

I’m overwhelmed thinking about where to start. Adam says just start with now so here it goes.

My latest endeavor - getting into Ada Academy.

I know what you’re going to say Mr. Wang- but it’s super competitive! It’s true, they only take 10% of applicants, but I’m going to stay hopeful because I am Ada material & the lady at the unemployment office believes in me! (They make me go OK)

Hello, its me. I haven’t seen you in a long, long time.

But I did read them. I can handle it. Lets take a look. 8 comments. What could go wrong.

• 1 comment calling the other woman pictured in the article a dog.
• 1 comment revealing the name of a revenge porn site if people want to go look (article left that out purposefully)
• 6 comments saying that’s what we get for taking the photos in the first place.

What’s bothering me

Still feels like I’m in a slump.

Im Playing around with CSS Today. Look at this pretty background! Creative market has some awesome free downloads this week. My favorite is probably the diamonds are forever pack… They have vectors and patterns which is what I used here. Then I used the repeat property in CSS to make it repeat accross the whole screen. Really liking this Google font too. It’s called ‘Sacramento’ - so pretty! Lux is my cat and she does not actually have her own design business, although she definitely has the hustle & the eye for it.
This is the page I was playing around with if I ever want to go look at it again.

I’ve never been to the UK, but my face has. It was a pleasure to talk with George about revenge porn and the hardships that it causes. I am grateful for the opportunity to bring more awareness to our cause! Major kudos to the UK for having laws in place against this practice.

I’ve been avoiding Harry because I haven’t been mindful enough. I told him I watched the Anderson Cooper video and let him know I thought it was weird but I will still try it evetually. He said some of the sessions he sent me are just 3-5 minutes. 3-5 minutes can be hard to come by when it’s something I don’t feel like doing.

Shit I made recently (a list):

1. A blog post for BADASS .
2. Barbie-Q banner for my nieces 3rd birthday- how freakin’ cute is this?
3. This meme for equal pay day

I was scrolling on Twitter yesterday. A developer I follow, Stephanie Something, retweeted a guy. His name was Sean Wang. I clicked on it. Holy Shit. It was the Sean Wang. My arch nemesis, Sean Wang. The guy from freecodecamp. You know who I mean. The man who started it all- the guy who did what I tried to do, but failed miserably at. Becoming a developer in a year.

The org is having a fundraiser that involves drinking so I got tasked with some design work that involves drinking. My pleasure :)

Isn’t it fun?!

Are you looking for quality design elements to hoard for the perfect project? I have been coming back here for years and they constantly deliver quality goods. Check out this week’s free downloads at Creative Market. They switch them up every Sunday.

Another tutorial tonight because sometimes I need inspiration.

Who doesn’t love a good Bootstrap tutorial to get them in the mood for makin’ stuff. It’s just so nice and easy. I did this tutorial.

Yesterday’s quote of the day:

“My friends tell me I have an intimacy problem. But they don’t really know me.”

-Gary Shandling. Comedian.

Shit that bothers me:

1. I wish I didn’t know how much butter goes into Jenny Cookies
2. Going back to court next week. FML.
3. Need to get dress for friends wedding. (does not actually bother me, but it is on my to do list so this is me, reminding me: DO IT!
4. Make pile of mail your bitch.
5. Read more books.
6. Stop being a piece of shit.

Harry asked me if I was interested in mindfulness and I said sure, so he sent me a bunch of information on mindfulness and I ignored it for a couple of weeks. I’m sorry, Harry. I can’t promise my full attention but I’m going to try. If I can’t even find the time to figure out what mindfulness is and how to do it, I am not off to a great start. This is me starting.

I am FREE! And by free I mean I am no longer working for a Fortune 100 company doing QA. I’m still working a lot, just in spurts and only when I feel like it.

Our ally, Joseph Cox, wrote about the org again in VICE MOTHERBOARD! He even quoted me as well as a couple other badasses.
I never wanted to be a victim of revenge porn, but I’m happy that it’s happening now, when the practice is getting so much publicity and people are changing the way they talk about this. Revenge porn is a crime and it’s time we start holding these creeps accountable.

The website for BADASS is just that- BADASS! And guess what, I made it. Feels good to have it done. It will actually help some people. I was in an article about Slack and it being used as a means to distribute revenge porn. Have a look!

I have a new project and I’m stoked about it! I’m “dont wanna do my actual job today”-level stoked about it. I still did my job today I just didn’t like it very much… But that could also be because I only have one week left working there before I’m no longer working there. My very last regression. It’s the end of an era. These people are jerks and if it didn’t hurt my chances of getting my severance I’d tell you right now about how they, quite literally, SHIT on my hopes and dreams.

The milk must go on, even without Rhonda.

So long, February.

I hate Sundays because I know Monday is about to happen. [ Weekend was cool. I ate tacos every day. Baby got his first hair cut. He hated it, but at least now I won’t have to deal with people asking me when he is getting his hair cut.

I am terrible at this whole milk journal thing. I feel like it did help the last time, but it’s hard to make myself do it. I am demotivated, sad, and CrAzY!!

So, this is about to take an unexpectedly raunchy turn. Luckily, I have no following to disappoint. I hope Mr. Wang doesn’t view me as unprofessional when he finds out about this.

So, I had a tutorial on my YouTube channel and it was awesome and maybe it will be back some day.

I need to get better about writing. I’m sorry, Mr. Wang.

I’ve got some projects going. I just filmed a tutorial on how to create a website with blog using github pages and Jekyll. I need to work on editing that and putting it all together for my new channel on YouTube. I just filmed it on my phone because I’m impatient and didn’t want to wait for Adam to get home to help me do it the ‘right’ way.

Another project I’m working on- Im using the photos from our cruise to make a static website for my portfolio. I’m making it using html, css, and bootstrap. It’s nothing exciting yet, but it’s proven to be challenging just to get the pics up and in order. Everything looked great on mobile but when I’m on a computer some of the pictures are flipping sideways and upside-down. It’s so annoying but I haven’t figured out what the fix is yet. I think it has to do with some data I cannot see because they seem to be pics I took on my phone, like maybe the phone was rotated when the picture was taken. I don’t know. I’m purposefully not linking to it but I do know how to ;)

So far I am not a fan of 2018. This probably isn’t the best outlet to discuss- but it’s bad. REAL BAD.

(A note from the future - I had just found out my nudes had been posted online)

Then.

Imagine my surprise then when I receive a message on Twitter from someone I don’t know, saying they found my blog (this one right here). He said he found me inspirational and said to keep going. I thought that was really awesome.

While the day was still SHITTY AF, this guy made it better. So thanks, guy.

I haven’t been super motivated with writing and posting but I am working on some projects- I’m practicing working with images in html with some of my pics from our cruise and outlining some ideas for tutorials in the future.

ALSO- I did end up registering for developer week- I am beyond excited for that. I registered for the hackathon portion as well… don’t really know what to expect for that but hopefully some team is willing to have me even though I consider myself a newbie.

Just kidding it’s still me. And yesterday was most certainly a zero day… BUT I did clean up after Christmas and start making some space and I need that to be able to work!

I know what it looks like, but yesterday was not a zero day, Sean Wang; I just didn’t get a chance to write. I made something for my portfolio, which I haven’t done in a minute. It’s another Jekyll site. Take a look:

I finally took the time to refresh my markdown skills.

I’m taking the day off. I had grand illusions of coding but was off to a slow start. Until I downloaded the app working copy… I can code on my iPad now- sweet.

Starting is hard, especially when you’re starting over. Motivation helps. Competition is a great motivator for me so when I realized that in the time I’ve spent trying to convince my current employer to send me to code school to become a dev (well over a year), some guy named Sean Wang over at Free Code Camp actually went out and became a dev… IN A YEAR, I was motivated. I am gunning for ya, Sean Wang… But, I’m going to wait a little while before I tell you this because if I lose steam after a few days that would be pretty sad.